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Lowest Point

Have you ever reached a point in your life when you have felt like it just cannot get any worse, when you feel you have reached rock bottom. Well that is the phase that I am currently going through at this present moment. Bear with me as I attempt to fill you in.

Well it all begun about 4 weeks ago when I went into work one Tuesday, I worked for a concession within a Mega clothing Store in Oxford Circus. I had just come back a day before from a lovely chilled out week long break I was feeling refreshed, energised and ready to face the challenges of working in the hectic environment that I worked in.

A liitle background on what I was doing at this particular job, well I was kind of in charge of the concession because I worked full time, so if anything went wronge it would all go onto my head. I I started the long day at 8:30am and had to finish at 6pm but most of the time I clocked out at 6:20-6:30pm. I don't mind hard work but working under stressful environment was what I had to endure daily. Being the stronge willed person I tend to be I was willing to withstand that as well. The line had to be drawn when I started being bullied by my mananger.

At first she was a nice lady firm as most managers should be. But as time ticked by, I discovered that she had no communication skills what so ever and that she tended to bite your head off if you tried to voice out anything on top of that no matter how much effort you put into doing a task- it was never good enough for her.

To cut a long story short- she called me in on that fateful Tuesday at 3pm told me to take a seat and told me I was unsuitable for the position. I wasn't shocked, I didn't panic and the best of all I didn't hold a grudge or feel angry towards her. Do you know why?? Mainly because I knew how much effort I had put into my job and that I had done my part.

That was my first ever job that I was laid off from in my entire life!! And believe me- I have a VERY long 'Job History' list. So you can imagine the thoughts that started to bombard my mind. How are you going to pay the bills, it's tough to get another job, you are not good enough that's why you lost your job ect. Instead of entertaining those thoughts I had to think beyond and I had to believe from the depths of my heart - that I was going through this for a reason and that this is an opportunity for me to bring out the best in me.

Two weeks after I was fired, the Manager and her mate the Director of the company I worked for, they themselves where told to pack their bags and go! That left me stunned - you reap what you sow. Yet on my side 4 weeks down the line after posted out 100's of CV's - I am still jobless

On the bright side though - I have started my own home based business and launched FuxionSA. Maybe I am meant to be own boss and not trade my hours for a limited amount of Pounds. Very few people make millions out of that, isn't it?

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Thando said…
Dadewethu, kunzima, kodwa not too hard with God on your side. I understand its been really mad not having a fulltime job. We get so caught up in worrying about bills and all the little things that we forget that we have talents that God has blessed us with. Look at what you are doing now? Ubuzokubona kanjani that you had this talent if you had not lost that job. Sure you no longer have that fixed income you were so dependent to. But this will be great dadewethu, it will unleash the side of yourself you probably never even thought you had. I'm really happy you did this. you are an inspiration. Khabazela kaMavovo, Ngunezi!!

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